alone

a·lone:  [uh-lohn]

~ADJECTIVE:  SEPARATE, APART, ISOLATED FROM OTHERS~


for the past few months, i've been dealing with a health issue.

(for the time being, i'd like to leave it at that.  not as an attempt to be cryptic, but simply, some things are private.  maybe in the future i'll get into the details, but for now, i prefer to keep quiet.)

it is nothing life-threatening or anything like that, but a struggle nonetheless.

i received some disappointing news this morning and i have been crying on and off since then.

i feel broken and battered, physically, spiritually, and emotionally.

i wonder whether i am being karmically punished for something i've done.

i question the path that i am taking to get this resolved.  am i doing enough?  am i not doing the right thing(s)?

i'm angry that i seem to be the "1" in those 1 in 10 statistics i hear about all the time.

frankly, i'm sick and damn tired, of my body not working the way it is "supposed to."


more than anything i feel alone.


and that is why i'm writing this post.

not for sympathy and really not as a "poor me" rant, although some may see it that way.

i know that there are people in this world who have circumstances infinitely more difficult than my own.  i acknowledge that and send my love and prayers.

i also acknowledge that each of us is on our own journey.  that my pain, sadness, and disappointments aren't any less valid because "it could always be worse."

you know what?  so are yours.

i'm guessing there are other people out there who are dealing with some of the same emotions i am regarding their own circumstances and who feel desperately alone.

that is the reason i am sharing this.

you are NOT alone.

i'm here with you and guess what?

i'll hold your hand. 

i'll give you all the love my heart can give.

i'll help pick you up and we'll figure out what to do next. 

because that's what we do.

we move forward....away from the darkness and back into the light.

so, for today, i hope you'll hold my hand and send me love and let me cry a little.

then, tomorrow, we'll move forward.

xoxox -